This is for us :)

I'm sorry, Mr. F..
You might wonder, why did I do this all of sudden? Why, am I not the same old me?
Why did I let go of us, how could I do this to us?

Time has passed since we started to get well with each other last year.. And without knowing, in these past few months, we were as close as ever. And then suddenly, I wanted this to happen?

I expected you to question my actions and become really stubborn.. But really, when I found the courage to ask this from you, you understood it quite well.. You accepted it the moment I asked you to and respected my decision. Really, I guess I was not wrong in thinking that you were one of the greatest guy in the whole world. You were so kind that you might bring me to tears. After all, weren't you the one who tried your best to make me happy before this? And, I, might be a fool for letting you go?

But then, I'm doing all this because I don't want to be a fool... I don't want to accept anything more from a guy who I don't own, literally, because the only person who could accept all that are your future wife. We might not know who and where she is right now, but she deserved all those great care and kind words you said to me. And of course, I want to keep all those feeling I used to have for you, for my one and only future husband.

And one day, if it's Allah's decision that we were meant to be with each other, (in other word, jodoh) then I would probably be the luckiest girl on the world. On that day, please, don't ever let me go. But just for now, let us be friends with each other.

p/s: thanks for the memories :)